It's been an emotional couple of days for me and my family in the wake of the preventable tragedy that claimed 17 lives at a Florida School. Sure, we didn't lose a loved one, but as a parent I can only imagine what the families who lost their children are going through.
Watching parents struggle through losing their child hits me and hurts me. When I allow myself to really listen to their pain and their experience, it physically and emotionally sickens me. I am sad, angry, terrified, and shocked, because it could've been my child's school instead of Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School.
My daughter is the center of my universe, and to lose her, especially in such a violent manner, would shatter my world. But the sad reality is that this is a real possibility.
Unfortunately, I can no longer say "this won't happen to me" and these days, I spend every waking minute worrying about what I would do without her.
I Am Terrified Of Losing My Child
For years, I've been driving my daughter to school, we hug goodbye, and we go about our day. I head to work without a worry in the world, because I knew that she was in safe hands.
Her father and I have had conversations with her about stranger danger, road safety, bullying, and how to handle certain situations that may arise while she's at school, but we never thought there would come a day when we had to sit her down and talk about school shootings.
The thing is we can talk and protest about it all we want, but that's not going to protect my daughter or bring back the ones who were slain. Gun control aside, we're failing to protect our kids while we sit and argue about what can be done, and it breaks my heart to know that right now my child could be unexpectedly taken away from me at any given time.
The image of Andrew Pollack talking about losing his daughter, Meadow, during the listening session held by President Donald Trump at the White House is burned in my mind, because with the way things have been going, that could've been me in his place. No school, child, teacher or parents is immune, and he reminded all of us of that.