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Demi Moore Opens Up About Her Dark Past

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Since the 1980s, Demi Moore has been considered one of Hollywood's elite, and it doesn't look like she'll be backing out of the limelight anytime soon.  

But while the G.I. Jane actress' has had a successful career, her acting feats aren't the only thing the media has reported on.

Unfortunately, they haven't all been positive.

The public tends to forget that celebrities are people too, and behind the glitz and glamour of Hollywood, they might not be living a picture-perfect life after all.

"She wasn’t sleeping as well, didn’t seem to be eating and looked really gaunt."

In the past, Moore had admitted she was a hard-partying teenager, and even went to rehab on the request of St. Elmo's Fire director Joel Schumacher in the mid-80s, for drug and alcohol abuse.

But while it was reported she had eventually kicked the habit, the mother-of-three was hospitalized in 2012.

Sources said the star suffered from a "what seemed like seizures," after doing whip-its (inhaling nitrous oxide) in her home, TMZ reported.

It was heavily speculated that Moore's downward spiral occurred following the collapse of her marriage to Ashton Kutcher, who was reportedly cheating on her with much younger women.

"Really, it was over the last year her friends saw a change," an insider told PEOPLE at the time. "She wasn’t sleeping as well, didn’t seem to be eating and looked really gaunt."

The incident led Moore to another stint in rehab for an addiction to prescription pills and an eating disorder.

Thankfully, she has since recovered, and is now opening up on her former struggles.

"I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction."

On October 27, Moore was named woman of the year at the Peggy Albrecht Friendly House’s 29th Annual Awards Luncheon, where she opened up about her recovery from her self-destructive past.

"I feel like there are defining moments in our lives that shape who we are and the direction we go, and early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough.

I had absolutely no value for myself, and this self-destructive path, it very quickly … brought me to a real crisis point. And it wasn’t clear at the time the reason — maybe it was divine intervention — but two people who I barely knew stepped up and took a stand for me, and they presented me with an opportunity.

In fact, it was more like an ultimatum … unless I was dead, that I better show up.

They gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life before I destroyed everything. Clearly, they saw more of me than I saw of myself. And I’m so grateful because without that opportunity, without their belief in me, I wouldn’t be standing here today.

I know in a moment of great struggle for me, I reached out to a wise teacher and expressed my fear that I wasn’t good enough.

And she said, 'You will never be good enough but you can know the value of your worth. Put down the measuring stick.' So today, I put down the measuring stick and I thank you for this beautiful acknowledgment and the opportunity to know the value of my worth."

In her acceptance speech, the Ghost actress added she was grateful for her "supportive" daughters, Rumer, 30, Scout, 27, and Tallulah, 24.

According to Friendly House's website, the non-profit organization has offered a "safe, structured and supportive home-like environment" for women recovering from drug and alcohol abuse for more than 60 years.

Moore wasn't the only woman honored at the annual event, and was joined by interventionist Dr. Louise Stanger, Barbara Bach Starkey and her sister Marjorie Bach Walsh, and motivational coach and Soulcycle instructor Angela Davis.

[H/T: Variety, PEOPLE]

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